Living life to its fullest

  I received lot of compliments about my voice that I talk softly, I have lovely voice, I talk very clear and slowly but the irony of the whole thing is that when ever I sing (just to my self) and people happen to hear they laugh. There is a common opinion about my singing that I sing as if it's not a song but a poem. Oh I hate to hear this but helpless. I try my level best to sing well.      Once in my school there was a singing competition and my teacher was asking students to come up for singing and as I was in her good books she called me for singing, I got up reluctantly but gave my best performance and the response she gave was shocking. She said you don't want to participate in the completion that is why you are singing so badly. Oh no this is not true.     Since then I have received these types of comments often. But I don't care. I know there is a problem with my Sur and Taal but how does that can stop me for singing.    ...

                    Bidding bye to turning twisting twenty     Last month I entered into my thirty's. A horrifying no for women when concerned with their age. No more I will be enjoying the pride of sweet 20. Hmm. Sad  😢  but prepared.    Today I somehow managed to stole time from my very busy job (being a mother) with no leaves at all to wander in my past 10 years. I thought before bidding bye to my terrific twenty I should spend some time with it for the sake of showing gratitude for the things I have gained in it. Because it's worth it.    I was in my B. Com second year 10 years back. My professional course, first crush, first job, marriage, child everything happened in this twenty's.    I believe everyone's life changes the most in this decade. The first 10 years are spent in the laps of parents enjoying and doing things without understanding. The rea...

Today i have completed my 33 weeks of pregnancy as per the ultrasound report. This journey of 33 weeks has been full of pain, happiness, tension and off-course concern for my little one. I call him Hanu. Hanu is a short of Hanuman. As my husband is a devotee of lord Hanuman i asked him for his garce and given the nickname to my child as "Hanu". I want him to be powerful, intelligent, naughty (but no so much) and a worshiper of lord Shri Ram. Now there are hardly few weeks left for his arrival and i am waiting for him everyday. When i am writing this blog he is still moving inside me. It's an exciting and emotional moment in your pregnancy when you feel you child moving inside you and you wonder what he's upto. Sometimes the movements are so rapid that i feel like yelling at him and tell him to stop it. And this feeling makes me smile in alone. Mothers are very special and the way they carry their child for 9 months with them and gives birth to them is no less than a ...

Yesterday when I went on bed a thought came to my mind that tomorrow is Independence Day and Our Prime minister Mr. Narender Modi will deliver the speech from the Red fort. Early morning feeling reluctant to wake up the only thought for which I left the bed was to listen Modi’s speech. I think I made a good decision. I felt proud to hear the speech because it has been a long time since we watched a prime minister delivering speech with so much energy and zeal. He delivered an extempore speech and that too in Hindi unlike the former prime ministers who give run of the mill speeches. Politics has never been a topic of my interest but yes Modi has been. Most of the people of the country like me have stopped talking, thinking and reading about the political issues because of the corrupt politics prevailing in the country. I am not a supporter of BJP or against Congress or any other political party but yes I am in favor of a man and the ideologies he believes in. The way he delivers spe...

29 December 2013 The truth is rarely pure and never simple. Oscar Wilde   A truth we often forget while living life to its fullest. A part of life we never want to discuss, never want to remember that we can be separated by our dear ones by this greatest truth called death. While making this journey beautiful & fulfilling we often forget the destination.  A second big loss in a decade. Dilip Mama is no more. He was suffering from Cancer for last 2 years and on this Sunday all the efforts and prayers of my family went in vain. We lost the most lovable, understanding and simple person with high values. He lived his life in a very simple way and taught the same to his children as well. When I think of him Content is the word which comes to my mind. He was happy and content with his life but the past 2 years changed the world around him and all of us. I really fail to understand how to behave when we loss someone we love so much. Do we need to behave in a practical and a m...

Is there any joke which can make a seriously ill person suffering from cancer  laugh? Is there any book which the most depressed person can read and enjoy? Is there any music which can heal wounds? Is there any movie which can help to forget the troubles of life? Is there something in the world which can reduce the pain of losing the beloved one? Searching the answers of the above but I think the answer is no, none or nothing. Feeling a bit sad, depressed as I am missing my family (especially my mother) and the thought of dilip mama’s health is hammering again and again my mind. It’s almost 1 and a half year since he is suffering from the most serious and deadly disease cancer. I still remember the day well when I spoke to him over the phone listening he is not well. I said “ kya hua mama?” He replied with innocence and a smile “ pata nahi beta pet main kuch gadbad hai” Actually initially he was suffering from stomach ache and after visiting several doctors ...